Series: Demon Slayer (Kimetsu no Yaiba)
Dear Kanroji, This is a different letter from the usual ones we exchange, because it will never reach you on paper… it can only be read in my heart. You know, I've never thanked my parents for bringing me into the world, nor the gods for conceiving my existence, but ... not a day goes by when I don't thank fate for giving birth to you, and letting us meet. How should it be living in a world where there were no demons? How would it be like to be born in a place where I would feel free to live as my heart said? In these 21 years spent cursing myself and my origins, I never thought for a moment that my birth was a joyful event, nor that my existence deserved something like a celebration, a birthday. Yes, I... I have always seen my birthday as an extra year in addition to my sufferings, my sins ... my faults... and I was sure that I would know happiness the moment I would left this world, in the hope of being able to pay for my sins by fighting, paying with my own life ... a life used for the others, a life that I have never really lived in first person. You know, Kanroji… before I met you I thought that people were scary, and that women were even scarier… because women ruined my life. But… meeting you meant turning that world upside down for me. Having the confirmation that that one person different from the others, from all the others, exists, also exists for someone like me, and it is you. You are the reason why I started to smile every day, to dream... to discover that even someone with rotten blood like mine could feel love, a love that I will never be able to reveal to you, that I keep inside my heart as the most precious thing that I have, the most beautiful, the purest... but that will remain inside me until the day that I've being paied for my sins. You are my antithesis, Kanroji. You are all that the most beautiful and good things the world has ever created, and, ironically ... you are also what I would never even dare to crave, because with this cursed blood of mine ... I would bring you only misfortune and death. These feelings inside of me... are what always took me to see my existence as dire, but today, on this day that I have always felt like cursed... you made me feel special. "Happy Birthday, Iguro-san! Let's do our best to make this wonderful day a wonderful memory, that will remain carved in our hearts forever!" I have always enjoyed exchanging letters with you, but I think that the words you spoke today, followed by the delicious cake you made for me, have stuck in me more than anything else. Yeah, just like you wished, I believe they are now carved deep into my soul. I don't know if there will be any more birthdays for me, I don't know if looking at you through the eyes of someone who says I love you without using words it will ever reach you, but I'm sure that your delightful wish one day will turn into reality ... and that no matter when, or in which life, maybe I can forget who we were, but I will never forget these feelings. And of course… the day when I will curse my existence may come once again, but I will never regret letting you celebrate this day for me, with me. Because in my heart, now and forever... Kanroji Mitsuri has signed a greeting card that she personally engraved inside me, with all her affection, with all her sweetness. I love you, Kanroji. Thank you for giving me a reason to enjoy this day, my birthday, because looking at you is enough to understand that today the happiest of all is you, and you know how I am… if you smile, then I smile too. Thank you for being born, for being in my life. Thank you for gifting me your smiles and your encouragement, your golden heart. Thank you for describing me as a nice person even though I am only nice to you. Thank you for giving me a reason to smile on this day and for being glad it was there.
Forever Yours, Iguro Obanai
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